Brenna's Birth Date today

Four years ago today, in the early hours of the morning, at 5.40am, after being induced the night before, a tiny little girl slipped from my body. The last time we would touch each other. My heart had wanted to hold on to her, refused to let go... and my body was listening. Despite three very painful (and heartbreaking) contractions the afternoon before I was still holding on... so the induction it was.

card from N today, thankyou xo

She was perfect. Tiny, yes. Delicate. But perfect. Little eyelids. Tiny toes. She just needed time to grow bigger and be allowed to live. Instead her heart had stopped. We never found out (medically) if there was a reason.

Still it catches me now and then to think that had Brenna not died, a little girl would have continued to grow inside me. Be born warm and alive, been inundated with love and little pink things and become just 'her'. Instead she lives in our hearts, memories and our 'what if's' and imagination.

Birthday cupcake toppers from Anna & Blue Paperie (free printable).

Happy Birthday Brenna...
Love, Mummy xo
& Daddy, Brooke, Jake, Zeke, Quinn
and our family and friends who hold you in their hearts.